Assalamualaikum..
Merindui arwah abah yg melampau2. what should i do?? everytime tgk gmbr abah, sah2 menangis. ya Allah. i cant describe that feeling. sakit nya.
Sedar tak sedar, dah 40days abah leave us. abah, i miss u so bad :'( serious ni. tak tipu. hari2 air mata ni keluar sbb rindu abah. yeah, i know sia2 tp i cant. i miss u so much abah. i need ur hug. pleaseee...
Bila baca quran after solat or before sleep, alhamdulillah terubat sikit rindu tu. tp sikit je bah.
Hari tu majlis tahlil 40days utk abah. pd awal nye sy ok. seriously ok. time semua start bace quran pun sy ok lagi bah. tp bila tgh baca doa, subhanallah. suddenly air mata trkeluar. try nak cover but i cant. im thinking how lucky sepupu2 semua masih ade abah. masih ada tmpt bermanja. and sy asyik fikir, klu lah abah masih ade, mesti abah ade dekat 'situ'. habis doa, terus masuk bilik abah menangis puas2 while called ur name. how i wish abah muncul time tu.
ya Allah, bodoh nye aku time tu but i cant hide my feeling. i still need him :'(
Sesekali bila fikir, tak matang kan? tp ntah lah. mls nk fikir. i cant help myself.
Abahhh.........
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| bila tgk gmbr ni, menyesal nye tak buat abah happy dr dulu. saya menyesal bah.. im sorry. |
And this,
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malam terakhir sy bersama dgn abah before abah msuk icu. i should hug abah time ni. i shouldn't sleep! i should talk w abah!! how stupid i am!
**bru hari ni i got this pic. ni pun abah baru hantar. tak pernah tahu die ade simpan gambar ni. thanks abg. |
Looks like i still cant accept this 'takdir'. subhanallah sabiha. tolong mengucap..
And thanks to kak long and maryam kamal for this great post. buat sy menangis tanpa henti.
Good night. doakan sy mimpi abah. semoga dpt peluk abah dlm mimpi. semoga dpt tgk abah senyum dan trgelak.